I always think I’ve gotten better, or that I’m over him, or that he doesn’t affect my life anymore.

He does.

He was my first love. I gave him everything and could honestly see myself with him for… well, ever. We were absolutely perfect. But he fucking cheated on me for half of our relationship and I had no idea. Two of my best friends knew and didn’t tell me. It’s fucking bullshit.

How can you skype someone every day and tell them you love them and want to be with them, and turn around and fuck other girls behind their back?

Or, how can you look at your best friend, who firmly believes her boyfriend is faithful and loves her equally, know he’s cheating, and not say a goddamn thing?

Fuck everyone. 

Fuck it.

I find it sad that whenever I’m online shopping I spend more time looking at and critiquing the models’ bodies than I do looking at the clothes.

Anonymous asked: I believe in you. You have courage to win this war. You have strength to overcome this battle. You have a heart that sees the best, focus on the best- and let that best be freedom. There is hope that you can attain freedom. What's perfection to you? For me, it's peace of mind, and refusing to believe that it won't all be alright one day. You have power to silence lies in your head that say you have to try harder to be a better you. You're you now. You're not alone.

<3

Anonymous asked: Do you know, you're perfect when you're just you? You're significant, special. I know the thoughts, I know the struggle, the fight against yourself. But darling, it won't be forever. You're beautiful. Believe me, inside and out. You are enough. You are worth it. You are worth protecting, you are worth being beheld with honor and awe. You have nothing to prove, nothing to earn, nothing to hide. You are an outstanding woman. Say that when you look in the mirror- words from your mouth have power.

wow. thank you. I’m working on it. I’ve been trying to avoid tumblr for the past couple weeks, but unfortunately that’s just led to bingeing… I can’t find a happy balance between the two..

Anonymous asked: I don't want to ask anything, but I do want to tell you something. I will make it a point to pray for you today. I hope you know that you are a unique and stunning creation, and that none of these posts truly define your heart. I'm a girl, 27, and I saw this site because a photo from it had been pinned. Obviously I don't know where you stand with God, only you can know that. But He loves you, SO desperately, and created you perfectly. Not your version of perfect, HIS! I hope you find peace.

I’m an atheist, but thank you.

Anonymous asked: I just wanted you to know that you are beautiful. It saddens me that you don't see how lovely you are. I would KILL to have your body. Just know there are people out here in the world that care about you.

<3 thank you. seriously. needed that.